I'm Listening!

So I am supposed to be napping right now... :) but... a little too much caffeine and I cannot sleep.  I did take a "skip day" yesterday and the Lord calmed my spirit...saying it was ok.  He and I had alone time to just talk and I am at great peace and felt his loving arms encircle me and just hold me for a little while yesterday.  It was just what I needed.

But there were some strange things that happened...God moments that I could have missed. First, I read my daily devotion:

"Then the LORD said to Abraham, 'Why did Sarah laugh? Why did she say, "Can an old woman like me have a baby?" Is anything too hard for the LORD? I will return about this time next year, and Sarah will have a son.'  "Sarah was afraid, so she denied it, saying, 'I didn't laugh.' But the LORD said, 'No, you did laugh.'"
Genesis 18:13-15

Encouragement for today

God again confirms that Abraham will have a son through Sarah, only this time the promise is for Sarah's sake. God includes Sarah in the plan, firsthand. God flatly states what will happen, impossible as it is. God repeated his promise to Abraham and Sarah many times until it actually came true. The waiting made it all the more clear that it was God who made it happen. If you too are waiting for God to fulfill his promises, remember that he always fulfills them at a time and in a way that will bring him the most glory.  —Diane Eble, author of Abundant Gifts: A Daybook of Grace-Filled Devotions

Ok, so it caught my attention.  I remembered it all day.  Then we went to church for our small group - Will and I are in the class, Experiencing God - by Henry and Richard Blackaby.  This is a GREAT study if you have not done it.  I did it last year while Will took another class - this time we decided to take it together. It changed my life when I took it, and we know God is shifting our ground, and we wanted to do this study together this time. 

So at the end of our session, we are told to just sit quietly for a few minutes and talk to God and ask him to give us something to tell the person on our left. Something that the person would know, be it a word, a phrase, a vision... something that spoke from God to that person.  So we sat quietly...and we all were given something to share.  We took turns and went around the circle and shared.  It was neat to see how God gave just the right thing that the person needed to hear at that particular moment. Tears even came for some. So Dave, who was praying for me, said he received two things - he said - "patience" and "2".  I think I stunned everyone - I said, no... this can't be! I think i was shocked to hear "2" again. I have heard 2 before - you can read it here.  So I explained to everyone that during this same class last time, during the same exercise, a friend had received 2 for me as well.  I explained a little more that I also had a vision of 2 when I was at the Summit. But after all these months, I had put it out of my head.  Our paperwork is approved for adopting 2, but they'd have to be siblings, and 2 siblings at the age range we are wanting is nearly impossible. We even had this discussion with our agency, that we didn't want to be sitting in the wrong "pile", etc... It was kinda a crazy conversation - but nonetheless, 2 siblings at the age we are wanting is very, very slim. We have been content waiting for our referral for 1 child.

That was until last night. And of course the group asked me what the 2 meant now. I said, well, I think it's 2 children...BUT...that could be 2 children total, or 2 more are joining our family.  The group is awesome - they all said, "we think it's 2 children joining your family!" and then one sweet, sweet lady said, "perhaps twins."  Well, that about pushed me over the edge in light of the same class last time, same words, same everything. I don't know what God is up to - I know he's talking to me...to Will...to us. We are being still, listening and seeking him. We/I are/am trying not to get too anxious - and TRYING to keep myself and my flesh out of it. I know what the "patience" was...that was clear as day. Poor Dave, probably thought I was a crazy person last night.  I just wore my emotions on my sleeve and the lips were flapping without the brain thinking too much.

So at the end of the day, I went back and I read my devotion that I started my day with...God gave Abraham and Sarah the impossible. God can bring us 2 children...2 siblings age 0-2. It's not impossible. God has our child - chosen just for us and us for him/her. I am thankful and can't wait to have him/her here in my arms to love and never let go. We just wait and pray and wait on the Lord - 1 or 2 more children...whatever God has planned, we humbly accept and glorify God in what he has done, what he is doing, what he will do and how he's doing it.