Forwards.... backwards. Forwards... backwards. That is the motion we have in our journey to Baby T right now. And right now, we are on the backwards. I can't explain what is happening for protection of everyone involved, but any progress we have made has been replaced with steps backwards. This week has been filled with so much emotion, rivers of tears, tough conversations, coming to terms with ideas, letting go of desires, decisions that hang in the balances... waiting for the next step, and struggling hard to cling to hope. Hope that dims. Hope that feels like it's slipping through our fingers. Hope that we refuse to let go of.
This is not a normal adoption process. This is not how things normally go. This, I would think, ranks right up there with 'worse case cenario' adoption process. And at this stage of an adoption, many things can happen. It seems that the paperwork will never be completed to bring the child home. Relationships are strained. Marriages can fall apart. Families divided. Referrals and 'the fight' for the child are abandoned because it truly does become too much {I can totally understand this and I don't fault anyone for saying enough is enough - that may be where a journey ends for some according to God's will because he has prepared something better for them}.... We are constantly under attack by Satan. He wants these things to happen. He is waiting for this to happen.
No. We say, no. Not for our family. We know this path is where God has us - as ugly as it is and as undesirable as it is. We refuse to give up - oh there are days we say, I can't do this any more. But we don't give up. In Him, our family is strong. In Him, we stand together and have pulled together. In Him, our marriage has grown; we are stronger together. In Him, we are solid. Will is the pillar of strength in our family. Leading us through this time, listening to his Abba Father's voice and praying continually. In Him, relationships have risen up out of this. Some amazing, amazing relationships with strangers have emerged, and lifelong friendships with friends traveling this same road have been rooted and are blossoming.
Baby T, we will fight for you. To the end. We will not give up. We refuse to give up. There was a plan chosen for your life - a plan and design for our family... and God collided those two plans to make us a family. We will not leave you - we will come to you. Adoption is a living example of the Gospel, and God has a promise for every single person...for His children... I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you. John 14:18
This is hands down, the hardest, most emotional, difficult, exhausting thing we have ever done in our lives. The pain of going to bed every night knowing our family is on two continents... waking in the middle of the night multiple times... Few truly understand it. This past week has been beyond difficult. Yes, there are days that feel like we can't go on. But we look to the cross, and press on. We see the price that was paid for us on that cross, and we press on. Committed to fight for a little boy who is waiting for us. Committed to fight for our son.
There are a total of 9 families from our agency who are 'stuck' in this. At least 10 children who are hanging in limbo of uncertainty. We ask for prayers for not only these families and children, but for all the others that are stuck too. There are more people who we don't even know of that are in this same position... which means there are probably hundreds of kids waiting to be united with their forever family.
This next week holds a lot. Each week holds a lot. Every day is valuable. The gov*rnment closes for the rainy season. Last year they closed from August 6 until October 15. Cases cannot be cleared during cl*sure which means children sit and wait even longer. We do not know the dates for this year yet. We are waiting... heavy hearted, knowing we won't make it through before... and praying.
Would you join us in prayer for every single person around the globe who is working on not only our case, but all the cases? For the social workers, for officials, for nannies, for decision makers, for the children, for the families waiting. For strength and peace... and for an end.
Thank you friends. God's blessings to you, and His peace.
This is not a normal adoption process. This is not how things normally go. This, I would think, ranks right up there with 'worse case cenario' adoption process. And at this stage of an adoption, many things can happen. It seems that the paperwork will never be completed to bring the child home. Relationships are strained. Marriages can fall apart. Families divided. Referrals and 'the fight' for the child are abandoned because it truly does become too much {I can totally understand this and I don't fault anyone for saying enough is enough - that may be where a journey ends for some according to God's will because he has prepared something better for them}.... We are constantly under attack by Satan. He wants these things to happen. He is waiting for this to happen.
No. We say, no. Not for our family. We know this path is where God has us - as ugly as it is and as undesirable as it is. We refuse to give up - oh there are days we say, I can't do this any more. But we don't give up. In Him, our family is strong. In Him, we stand together and have pulled together. In Him, our marriage has grown; we are stronger together. In Him, we are solid. Will is the pillar of strength in our family. Leading us through this time, listening to his Abba Father's voice and praying continually. In Him, relationships have risen up out of this. Some amazing, amazing relationships with strangers have emerged, and lifelong friendships with friends traveling this same road have been rooted and are blossoming.
Baby T, we will fight for you. To the end. We will not give up. We refuse to give up. There was a plan chosen for your life - a plan and design for our family... and God collided those two plans to make us a family. We will not leave you - we will come to you. Adoption is a living example of the Gospel, and God has a promise for every single person...for His children... I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you. John 14:18
This is hands down, the hardest, most emotional, difficult, exhausting thing we have ever done in our lives. The pain of going to bed every night knowing our family is on two continents... waking in the middle of the night multiple times... Few truly understand it. This past week has been beyond difficult. Yes, there are days that feel like we can't go on. But we look to the cross, and press on. We see the price that was paid for us on that cross, and we press on. Committed to fight for a little boy who is waiting for us. Committed to fight for our son.
There are a total of 9 families from our agency who are 'stuck' in this. At least 10 children who are hanging in limbo of uncertainty. We ask for prayers for not only these families and children, but for all the others that are stuck too. There are more people who we don't even know of that are in this same position... which means there are probably hundreds of kids waiting to be united with their forever family.
This next week holds a lot. Each week holds a lot. Every day is valuable. The gov*rnment closes for the rainy season. Last year they closed from August 6 until October 15. Cases cannot be cleared during cl*sure which means children sit and wait even longer. We do not know the dates for this year yet. We are waiting... heavy hearted, knowing we won't make it through before... and praying.
Would you join us in prayer for every single person around the globe who is working on not only our case, but all the cases? For the social workers, for officials, for nannies, for decision makers, for the children, for the families waiting. For strength and peace... and for an end.
Thank you friends. God's blessings to you, and His peace.
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