"Then the baby's sister approached the princess. 'Should I go and find one of the Hebrew women to nurse the baby for you?' she asked.
"'Yes, do!' the princess replied. So the girl went and called the baby's mother.
"'Take this baby and nurse him for me,' the princess told the baby's mother. 'I will pay you for your help.' So the woman took her baby home and nursed him."
Exodus 2:5–9
encouragement for today
Moses' parents acted in great faith and courage. They put baby Moses in a basket in the river and had to trust God for the outcome. Moses' sister, too, showed great courage and faith by stepping out at the right time to speak to the princess. Moses' parents surrendered their child to God, and the outcome was that they were able to care for their child openly. The mother even got paid for nurturing her son! Great things come from the surrender of faith.
—Diane Eble, author of Abundant Gifts: A Daybook of Grace-Filled Devotions
That was my devotion yesterday. It struck me at the core. Today has been a hard day. We don't know when we will get to travel to meet our son. The courts are about to close for the rainy season. We have a two month wait before the courts are open again and we are waiting for a court date. It seems endless. Today, it seems like a dream - a dream that I have prayed to become a reality. The ache in my heart is a lot to bare. And I have had to do everything I possibly can today to keep positive.
This is totally my opinion and written without abandon. It is from the heart. Being a woman who cannot have children, I cannot relate to what it is like to be pregnant and deliver a baby. But what I can tell you, is what it feels like to adopt. Once you start the process, you have no idea when the ending will be...when you will have your child. You endure a lot emotionally. Your heart yearns for this child who is only in your mind - there is no ultrasound to see, or heart beat to hear. The love grows in your heart out of nothing but a stack of papers, notarized signatures, and the seed that God has planted. And that seed, God waters.
There are dramatic differences between domestic and International adoption. We've traveled both roads and International, in our case, is much more challenging....requiring a lot more strength. A lot more faith and trust in God. When we adopted E, we got the call that we were matched, went to the hospital, met his birth mom, helped deliver him, and there he was - in my arms. This time, it's different. We waited a year. We got the call. We got pictures of our son. But we can't touch him. We can't hold him. We can only pray for him. And then, there is a court closure where no one travels until October. And we don't even have a court date yet to put on our calendar...a day that we can look forward to seeing our son. Holding this precious gift that the Lord has given to us. We have to wait. And today, more than any other day, seems like forever. It is hard. And today, requires more strength and more leaning into God...resting my head in his lap. He has a plan and a purpose...he always has. But the flesh in me is anxious! I have a son, I want him here. Now. But that isn't what God has planned right now, and there are governments involved, and paperwork and more waiting. We just hope that everything is in order so that when the courts open again in October, we have a smooth process to bringing our son home.
So if you wonder how does it feel...think of it this way. You just gave birth to a baby and they hold the baby up to let you see him/her...and then took him/her away. And you have to wait an unknown time period before you can hold him for the first time...look into his eyes...kiss his sweet face and tell him you love him and that he is God's chosen child. Tell him you are his momma.
That is how it feels. So today, this part of the waiting is hard.
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