Do You Dream?

Well...I lost it in church yesterday.  During the praise and worship time...we sang the song, Still and the words and the meaning and the cry of my heart just overflowed. 




I have really been doing good - leaving everything that is happening, the children, everything with the Lord. Trusting and having faith and letting him carry the burden.  But something inside me just broke yesterday. Thank you, Jackie, for meeting me where I was, the mess that I was in the ladies room.  She just came in and picked me back up and put me on my feet. She didn't have to say anything...she just hugged me and let Jesus wrap his arms around me through her and let me cry my eyes out.

During the sermon our pastor was talking about listening and hearing God speak. There are times God uses the night to talk to us - he has our full attention at night. We aren't preoccupied with other things going on - he can talk to us by waking us up and by giving us visions and dreams to speak to us.

I know some people dream every night and can tell you what they had a dream about.  I am not sure if I dream or not - I don't recall doing so, and I certainly haven't had a dream in a VERY. LONG. TIME. I have had a time where I went to bed with something heavy on my mind and I thought about it all night.  I do wake up a lot and pray...I will have someone or something on my heart and I just pray.  But I don't dream. That I know of. That was until last night.  I woke up and I shared my dream with Will.  It was so real, that I had a hard time distinguishing if it was real, or if it was a dream. That's how real, how clear it was. I replayed in my mind what did I do before I went to bed - did I take something that was on my mind and have a dream about it? I read before I went to bed. I read One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. Not heavy reading at all. I wasn't thinking about Ethiopia, our children, orphans, etc...I just read about Thankfulness.

My dream was a phone conversation with our case worker. She called my phone and we chit chatted a little bit about other things - and then she said, "You guys, I have your referral."  Our referral in my dream is for 2 boys. Twins. Born in December 2010. She said that this is unusual - and that the agency as a whole hasn't had very many referrals for twins at this young of an age. She said they used to have more referrals for twins years ago, but it's been a really long time.  We accepted the referral.

I woke up.

There is a lot going on and still a lot of unknowns for us at this point. But God knows. He is in complete control of everything. We trust. We have faith.

Whatever the dream was, if it was just me dreaming or if it was indeed God talking to me - I am thankful.  For a moment, I held what my heart desires.